Wednesday, November 20, 2013

chipping away


I have become very acquainted with this apartment in the past few months. We're soul mates in every way: I love it, I get sick of it. We spend a lot of time together and our relationship is "complicated" but I do, for the most part, love my quiet days here.

I sit between silence of these walls, listening for I don't even know what. Eventually work will pick up, life will get crazy, and I won't be walking to the mailbox just to say I got outside. These days won't stay forever. I sometimes try to put myself in my nineteen, twenty year old mind. Where did I imagine I would be at twenty-four? What kind of a wife/woman/person did I hope to be? Sometimes it's hard to remember. 

But I think, I hope, that I would be happy with the way things are turning out. From an outsider's perspective, I probably look lazy. Staying in my pajamas for just a little too long, clicking away quietly on my laptop. It doesn't look like I'm chasing after dreams, taking risks. But I am. These little moments are adding up. The words I punch into the laptop are forming chapters which will one day become a book. It's silly and cutesy, even, but it's a dream nonetheless.

And maybe that's the point of this post. That the quiet chipping away we do actually has meaning, probably more so than the more exciting, dramatic life events that I write in all caps in my planner. "BECOME A WRITER" somehow never ends up on the calendar. But I like to think that that's what's really happening.









10 comments:

  1. <3 I think it's so wonderful that you are pursuing your dream of writing a book.

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  2. Love this:) Keep chasing your dreams--that's what this time is for. Love your writing:)

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  3. I love this:) You are so beautiful and what you are doing is meaningful:) love Katie

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  4. The older I get, the more I realize how much of life is little things, and how much joy those little things hold. And yes, all those little things add up to big ones. Writing a book is incredibly meaningful. I admire you for pursuing your dream a day at a time.

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  5. Wonderful, inspiring and eye-opening post! Keeping this kind of perspective of life is great! Big dreams are built in the day-to-day. So enjoy your day-to-day now! <3

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  6. I love this idea of chipping away. Your blog writing is an absolute treasure to read. Good luck with your book!

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  7. When you want something to happen, the whole world conspires to help you achieve it. - said Coelho :) good luck!

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  8. Yes. And you're not lazy. No one would think that. Xo.

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  9. I was in your shoes all summer--I'm glad you're embracing it! You're right, life won't always be like this, but these are moments for so much growth. Becoming a writer, that's most definitely what's happening :)

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